Merry Xmas

New 2009 Year is nearing
Need to change alot sia
Hehe
I don't think can sia
Hahas

Advance Merry Christmast to all!

May you all have a great and happy Christmas!

And Advance Happy New Year!

I'm still me

There's this one girl I'm really inlove with

But too bad, just get rejected

I truly understand her

I'm not the guy for her

Even if it takes me a whole lifetime trying to forget

I can't

My friend's told me that I've really change

I'm not gonna blame her if it's all because of her

There's only me to blame

Blame me cuz I've loved her

Blame me cuz I've been insane

And blame me cuz I never ease to make her smile

Anyway, hope I'll move on quicker

I don't wanna lose friends

And just hope you all won't change the way ya'll look at me

Cuz I'm still me

One day

Why ever should I have a parents like this?
Always I'm in the wrong place
And other people's at the right place
I don't understand them

****
One day
I'll ran away
Very far
Far from everyone
Where no one will find me

And one day
I'll find this gate
Where inside has no problems
****

Why not?

Want me out of your buisness??

Sure, why not?

Then you're out of my buisness too

I don't care the shit out of you anymore

****

F*cked Up

BASH or POUR

Aaargghh!!
Worst birthday morning I've got in my whole entire life
Morning, we had this shit, cross country, who ruin my morning
And after that, my classmates ask me Bash or Pour

I don't even what is Pour, so i chose it
And the whole CHINESE guys pour water on me
And in front of all those schoolmates and GIRLS
Zzz

Then some more, the girls pour water on me too
Zz
They can bash me, not POUR!
Zz

Anyway, I still had fun today
^^

SPAR

Sigh
Sparring today
2v1
Paolo and I vs Alvin

Didn't really know who win
It's up to the audience
I'm not judging
I just know that we had fun today
^^

P.S. I'm more stronger than Paolo.. Hahas ^^

Leaving

I'm leaving

I won't be staying in Singapore for too long

My Dad have finish negotiating with his company

Maybe next year we're moving to New Zealand

Sigh

I'm so sad

Leaving my friends here

From this day on

I'll treasure them like I don't wanna leave them

And what I'm sad of the most

I won't get to see her anymore

And won't have the chance to talk her to anymore

Sigh

Shit

I don't know who to believe now

Everyone seems to lie

No good talking to them about this shit

Only can smile

Even though they're full of shit

Lonely night

A lonely night

Is full of loneliness

A lonely october

Is full of unhapiness

Yesh!

New month

New life

Hahas

Exams gonna be over soon

WAHOO!!

siggh

From now on
I'll accept the fact
That you don't wanna see me

((()))

Last night, I talked to my friend
Everything she says
Has changed my mind
She's right

It's not the end of everything
Only time will decide
My friends got the same problem like me

She says :
"If you love someone, you'll do everything for her,
unless, you're words are stronger than actions. "

My way

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
Cause I know I just can't stay
Just like what I am now

Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know I'll be no more

....

Letting you go is difficult
But it feels better
Than not letting you go
And EMOing all the time

Letting you go

All I want is to see you happy

So I've make up my soul

It's not that I'm giving up

I'm gotta forget about you

I'm just gonna let you go..

..completely..

Don't mean

Earlier this day

I beat up Wei Qiang

Because he wrote something on a paper

Which is true

I tore the paper

Keep it and put it in my pocket

Then want to take out something

Put the paper in the table

Wei Qiang suddenly took it

I ask for it

He threw it to Goh Sheng & Co.

I know what will happen if they know

New rumours

New talk-about

Sigh

Didn't mean to do that

Just want to show you

That I really want to forget about you

But you careless

I don't know what I just did

Then 2periods before dismissal time

I ask for a marker

You gave me

I can't just reject it

So I took it

And you started playing with me

I don't know whether I should feel happy or not

Pinching and hitting with you

I don't know why I don't feel anything

I only know I smiled

Cuz there's only ONE that can cure me

Cure my hopeless heart

Is to see you SMILE cause by me

At last
I can say whatever I can't say here in blog
I don't wanna tell her about this blog
I just don't want her to think weird

Yeah, I do love you Jasmine
Every time you talk about him
I feel thousands of needles poking me
I just wanna die that moment

I don't know how to tell you what I really feel
Cuz in your precious eyes, I'm only your brother
Paolo ask you once
"How if Patrick likes you?"
And you told him, he got no chance

That's why I'd rather ask you to be my GOD-SISTER
Rather than being rejected

It's okay
I understand you
I know the way I love you is not the right time
If everyone knows what I really feel about you
They would think I want to steal you from him

I still remember, that I help Goh Sheng to be with you
Yeah it happens
He's happy
I don't know about you
But even though I help him, I'm hurt

I also remember the time I told you to get back with Alvin
I know that's the only way to see your smile back
Even though it hurts me alot
It's alright with me
As long as your happy, I'm happy

And now you two were together
I saw your face, your movement
I know you feel so much joy in your heart

Just to see you smile
I would do everything
Even to sacrifice everything
I wouldn't take another day with you feeling unhappy

I just want everything in your life to be fine
I don't want you to get hurt
Alvin should feel very lucky to have you

I know you know about the rumours spreading about
Yeah it's true
I do like
But they made me swear If I really don't like you

I swear that I don't like you
But in my heart
I don't really like you
But I love you

This past few days
You seem to be avoiding me
I understand that

Anyway, your life seems to be great with your heart with ALVIN
Nevermind, I know I'm not the guy you desire
So the only way I could do
Is to see you in good condition

You won't ever see this blog again
With full of your names
Cuz I wouldn't tell you
I just wanna keep this blog a secret

Where no one knows
I put all my hurt feelings

Sighhhh

I don't care what people around me

I only care about you

If you think that I'm regretting everything

No, I just love the way things going through me

You're never wrong to me

You're always right

You're choices is up to you

So I'm ready for everything you'll say to me

I'm not the one

Even if we're not meant to be together
It's alright, cuz I know I'm not the one

But remember this,
I will love you, till yesterday, till now and till tomorrow
And the day you will open your eyes
To see my love for you

Please tell me..

Please tell me Girl, if I've gotta chance
Cuz I couldn't take another word from you
Every word you talk about somebody, make me bleed
If only I could tell you this in person, I already did

But I know you would think it as a joke
Cuz never before you believe anyone would say it to you
I promise this Girl, once I've gotta chance
I wouldn't let you go

Please tell me Girl, if I've gotta chance
Cuz I can't take another breathe
Looking at your precious eyes

SIGH

Haish
One week holidays really starting getting me to stressed
Holidays started 2 days ago, but not any of projects started
Haix

Haven't found a job
Need money, really
Sigh

2 Girls who's very special to me
One of them, lied to me
I waited for nothing

Another girl
She's happy now
But here I am rotting

All I want is happiness
But what i get?
In the end, sacrifice alot
SIGH

This world really hates me
I wish I could turn back everything
I could just run away

In this world, you're the only one in my mind
Even if you don't know you're the ONE
It's fine with me
No guts to tell you

I just love you

Thats true

I just wanna be high

Like the clouds in the sky

My friends life is enjoying

But here I am dying

I can't take it anymore

I'm now acting like a crazy whore

I already sacrifice my happiness just for you

Because I love you

And that's true

I am thinking of you

Sometimes it's hard to put feelings into words

But I want you to know that every minute

"I am thinking of you"

Wondering what you are up to

Counting the days till we can do together

Missing you more with every Passing Day

So good

So good arh

Finish common test already

Hahaha

I now then post after so long sia

Hehe

Anyway, anyone can tell me?

How am I supposed to live if she has/love someone already??

Thanks

=)=

Half happy, half sad

Common Test

Sigh
Common test coming
Haven't even start studying
No mood

Feel like doesn't even care of my studies anymore
Feels like I'm so light
That I just want to fly away with the wind

I lost my handphone even more
All my memories, phone books and my new found friend is store there
Want to cry now
Huhuhu
T.T

Miss her

She haven't online yet

I miss her alot

Wish you're alright

I love you

I'm in love with this girl

Haix

Someday I'm gonna meet you

Take care

Muah

Finally

Finally coming back to this blog

Now, I've got guts

:D

If

I'm on hangover right now
If only it had never happen
If only I don't have the other girl's number
It wouldn't happen this way

But what's done is done
She ain't no turning back anymore
She's finally done it to me
I wouldn't know what to do if she never forgive me

I love her
Deeply inside my heart
To the core
Sigh

This is not the way I want it to be
But I know it's too late
For everything
I wanna die now

I would do everything
Just for her
Even if she doesn't have feelings for me
Even if she doesn't want me in her life

That's how I love her
So if any of you love someone or reading this
I hope this won't happen to ya'll
I don't want you all to be hurt
Like me

Tricia, if you're reading this
Just wanna let you know that I really love you
And that I'm sorry
That I didn't do it on purpose

If I would have the chance to return back to time
I would change it

To all blog readers

Maybe I'm not gonna use this blog anymore

I've got new blog that nobody of you will know

Aryt

Just wanna tell ya'll to take care of yourself always

If ya'll have any problems, just message me or contact me

You can add me up here :

Yahoo : patrick798oliver@yahoo.co.uk

MSN : curly_798@hotmail.com

Bye

^_^

In love..

At last, I'm in love..
I feel like I'm in heaven..
Floating like a feather..
Haix..
:D

Bagay tayo..

Hindi tayo tao..

Hindi din tayo hayop..

Bagay tayo..

Haha..

Woooh..

Just came home from work..

Never been this tired wid all my life..

Yeash..!!

Exam's over!!

Celebrate!! Curly celebrate..!!

I can't stop jumping for joy!!

Hahaha!!

This song reminds me of someone I really love..

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I can never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best.. when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd (the crowd)
Try as they may they could never define
What's been said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best.. when you say nothing at all

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best.. when you say nothing at all

(You say it best when you say nothing at all
You say it best when you say nothing at all..)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know that you need me..

Wahh..

Today, first day of MID YEAR..
Actually, second..
Diffy sia..
Like dun wanna study anymore..

Hahaha..
Anyway, things went bad right after english paper..
What in da world did I do oh GOD??
I was just joking and I couldn't believe my bestfriend dun wanna hear me..

But after that, fortunately, I feel great..
My aunt and I went to JURONG POINT to watch the IRON MAN..
It's damn holy good!!
I love it!!
Then we went to KFC eat..

Hahaha..
And here I am typing my wonderful words..
Hahaha..

Ayoko na..

Ayoko na magtago..
Nahihirapan nako..
Ayoko na..

Laging nagtatago sa dilim..
Na hindi naman alam kung anong kinakatakutan..
Di ko alam kung bakit ako nasasaktan..
Wala naman sakin lumalapit..

Nalilito nako..
Di ko na kaya..
Sa labas, naka-ngiti ako..
Sa loob, dumudugo ako..

Di ko na alam gagawin ko..
I've tried everything..
Nakisama ko kahit kanino..
Wala parin pumalag sa nararamdaman ko..

Kung akala nyo na babaero ako..
Nagkakamali keyo..
Sa totoo, pakita pagod nako..
Ayoko na..

I'm letting everything out..

Mid Year!!

Aaarrgghh!!!!!!
Mid Year Exam's next week!!
OMFG!!
I haven't study!!

Di ko na alam gagawin ko..

Sana di ko na nalaman pa..
Na meron ka ng iba..

Sabi ko sa sarili ko na lilimutin kita..
Na kaya ko..
Pero yun pala, lalong sasaktan ako..
Di ko na kaya..

Sana di ko na nalaman..
Alam ko masaya ka na..
Pero sana matandaan mo toh..
Kung Binabasa mo toh..

Nighihintay parin ako sayo..

ToT

I have a bad day..

Darn!!

So pissed with every living creature here at home!!
Fucked up!!
I could say every vulgarities here..
Damn!!

I could live well with my housemates here..
Almost everyday!!
HOLY SHIT!!
God please help me with my darn life here at home..
And please make my housemates fun, NOT LIKE FAGGOTS!!

Back home..

I came back about 2nights ago..
Actually I don't want to go back home..
But when I heard my mother got high blood..
I quickly get back home..

Haix..
I don't know what to do..
Feel like tearing apart this very moment..
Aaaarrrggghhh!!

Anyone can make me happy??
Don't worry, I'll do good to you in return..
Hehehe..

Haven't done before..

Haiiixx..
Can't believe I just did this..
I'm not at home now..
Neither at computer shop..

I'm in my friend's house..
Run away from home..
Don't wanna go back..
Pissed of with my life there..

Damn!!
Many bad lucks came to me this month..
Almost everything..
So sad..

:(
But anyways, what's done is done..
Maybe tomorrow or the next day I'll be back home..
Hahahas..

Finally..

Finally..
Everythings gonna be over..
Whooooshh..
I don't know how would I feel..

Hahahaxx..
Maybe happy..
Sad..
Great..
God knows..

You don't need to meet me..
Haha..
No need to explain..
I've got all the reason you can choose from already..

** I'm too young for you..
** I disturb you too much..
** I don't know how to cheer you up..
** You think everything I do is CHILDISH.. (well, i don't)
** You're friends has encourage you to stay away from me..
** You're too busy, and meeting me is just a piece of shit.. (i understand that haha)
And most of all..
** You don't love me anymore..

You can choose..
Hehehe..
I won't be mad lah..
I understand..
Hahahaha!!

Everyone knows me..
I don't like EMO..
So I'm not gonna be..
I'm not gonna be EMO..
Alright??

Just call me ASAP you read this..
I want it to be over..
XD

For others..
Pls don't try this at home..
XD

Sure babes..

If that's what you want..
Then be it..
You won't hear another word from me..
Not even a single word..

Do what you want..
Say what you want..
I won't force you..
Believe this if you want..

I know it's APRIL FOOL'S DAY..
But here, I'm serious..
Up to you..
I've heard enough..

I don't care what you say..
I don't want to hear another complain from you..
Call me if you want..
But I'm not gonna call you..

That's the last call you ever recieve from me..
The call that made you say all those stupid words..
The call that made me realise that I'm just a fool..
You solve my problem..
I get my last key..

So yeah!!
Enough for that..
I don't want our conversation to spoil my day!!

Anyways, DILLAN GOT FOOL SIA!!
Class 2C!! Hahaha..
I can't believe Dillan really believe someone like him sia!!
HAHAHAHA!!

APRIL FOOL FOR EVERYONE!!
REMEMBER!! THIS ONLY HAPPENS ONCE A YEAR!!
SO ENJOY EVERY MOMENT OF IT!!
LIKE I DID JUST NOW!!
HAHA!! XD

;o3

Too speechless here..
It's not that I don't know what to say..
It's I don't want to say..

Ask me why..
I wouldn't tell..
Ask me why I again..
Get a life..

I wish..

You okay now??

You still tired??

Hope you're alright..

Take care always..

I know you're busy..

I ain't gonna call you..

I don't wanna disturb you're mood..

Luv you..

=(

I don't know what to do..
Cuz I dun have a clue..

So tired and pissed..

I'm so tired..
Many things happen to me yesterday..
My unlucky day..
MOST..

I went home yesterday and called you..
I'm expecting you would cheer me up..
But what I get is just stupid comments..
Ain't acting here like a f*ckin kid..

And after that you ask me not to call you..
Yeah, I didn't call you..
But whenI called you today..
Everything changes in you..

Ain't the babes I know..
Nevermind lah..
I dun understand what..
SO PISSED..

Pissed off..

I'm now standin' ova here in Orchard..

Lil pissed off wid somethin'..

Haixx..

Anybody out there can make me smile??

I don't care if you're a gurl, guy, gay, tomboy, lesbians..

Attached, disattached, married, divorce..

Or anything...

Babes..

I miss ye so much..

Can't wait for the day we'll meet up..

Love you..

Holy week..

No school today sia!!
So good!!
We sacrifice alot sia..

Just came back home from Jurong Lakepark..
So tiring..
We jump here..
Jump there..

Hehehe..
So how's my babes doing, eh??
Hehe..
LabYou..

First time..

Sports day today BORING sia!!
Waste my time only..
I'd rather come to her dorm than wasting my time..
Hehehe..

Anyways, I meet her just now..
So good..
We went to my hood..
And after that to jurong lake park..

Hehe..
This is my first time to go her hood sia..
But only down stairs!!
I can't believe her hood is a HDB flat..
Cuz it look like more to a CONDOMinium..

Hehehe..
So tired..
No mood to keep on typing..

For more information, pls call me..
XD
Luv ye babes..

Do you??

Do you need someone beside you??
When you're lonely??
When you're having problems??
And when you really want someone to wash away your tears??

Do you care for the one you love??
The one you wish he/she would never leave you??
The one who will never think of tearing apart??
And the one who will tell you he/she would never leave you??

Do you wish for him/her to tell you that they really love you??
Every night??
Every moment??
And every second of ur life??

For me..
I really love the girl I'm with now..
I don't wanna lose her..
Cuz I know..
The heartbeat I'm having is from her..

I love you...
More than everyone..
And "MORE THAN THAT"...

.....

Everything changes too fast..
Time passes too fast..
My life has change..
From good to bad..
Bad to worse..

Been really boring this days..
But fine!! I admit..
Without her, my life's too boring..
I can't meet her the way we used to..
I can't call her the way I used to..

2weeks more..
2weeks of suffering..
2weeks of boring life..
And 2 weeks of shit life..

Damn..
I love you babes..
Pls don't think of any wrong ideas about me..

Aint..

Been busy this days..
Can't touch the computer cuz no internet..
Hell shit..
Damn..

I ain't a playboy or any wrong ideas you think I am babes..
I love you..
You know that..
And everyone knows that..
Alright??

XD

Went to Singapore Botanical Garden today..
It was so hot..
Really made me hot..
Awww..

Take pictures here and there..
With my Mom and Aunt..
I've had fun with them..
Cuz they bring me out to eat whatever I want..
Hahaha..

Then after that, we went to Orchard..
Also eat there..
Hahaha..

Babes!!
I miss you so much!!
Aaaarrrggghhh!!
I love you..

1st Monthsary..

Hey yeah!!
Just came home half an hour ago..
Haiissshhh...
So tired..
But really enjoy..

You made my month!!
I love you so much..
Happy 1st monthsary babes..
Wish many months more to come..
Hahaha..

Anyways, she gave me a photo of us..
And yeah..
And behind it..
There's a words she wrote..
That no one can own her words..

Hehehe..
We went to Vivo City..
Walk here, walk there..
Buy this, buy that..

I called Suriani whether they wanna meet up for awhile..
And yeah..
We meet..
Hehehe..
AQIL!! Take care of TIARA hor!!

Hahaha..
Really enjoy the moments I'm with her..
I love her so much..
WAHOO!!