It's all about us

I'm back

2011-06-27T21:55:00.000-07:00

Just got back from the Philippines
Geez
I don't feel like going back here yet
Cuz there's just some things I don't wanna hapen
everytime I go for holidays

First things first, it was fun though
Meeting up with my friends
Going out for a drink with them
Goin for smokes
Hahaha

Then came the things I don't wanna happen
Here it go
._.

Met a girl
Known her for only barely 2 weeks
I swear she's so "suplada"
Yet, she's so nice

When I first knew her, she's so "suplada"
But after we met, she became the girl I never expected her to be

All I'm looking for, is just someone to kill my time with,
Yet I found a "SS"
All I want is a friend,
Yet I found a good friend
All I want is to be nice to her
Yet I became the old Patrick I once forgotten

We meet, we flirt, we talked as if we knew
each other for a very long time
But thanks to God,
I felt so happy,
her being around

Well, this come-back story is too complicate,
I know
Haha.

The next time I update this dead blog,
I'd be posting the pictures I took
Hahaha
So long ^^

I still miss you

2010-08-15T21:21:00.000-07:00

It's been 3 months and 6 days since you left me
I still miss you much
I really do..

If I had one wish
I would wish to go back into time to be with you again
To stop the time you left me..

I know you're having a good life now
And I've got no intentions to spoil it
Your sweet smile is enough for me to be happy..

I still love you
So much
I really do..

I'll wait for you..
I love you, Julliene.

Much love,
Oliver

Denials

2010-06-09T19:56:00.000-07:00

I'd rather live my life with full of denials
and sarcastic life
Than admitting my true feelings
and losing a friend

It's over.

2010-05-13T04:46:00.000-07:00

My soul dies on 12 May at 2.05pm.
There was nothing I could do.
It's over.

I roam

2010-04-20T08:44:00.000-07:00

Sat in a rock
Beside the dock
Holding your hands tightly
With love and mighty
Enjoying the sun sets
Don't want to go home yet

Your heart will I roam
Because I now call it home
My love for you is like a jade
And never will it fade

Told you to stop crying
And said you will
I know you're lying
Cuz I know you for real

Wish I could be with you on summer nights
With a candle lit dinner and not lights

Please don't ever let me go
Cuz I love you, like I told you so
Now I'm going back home
Will miss the place I always roam

-Patrick Oliver

WOWOWOW

2010-04-09T20:43:00.000-07:00

Long time never post liao
Hahaha
Blog got problem lately

Last night slack with Haqiqie
He talk to his stead
Don't know got what problem
Haha
But now I think they OK

Haqiqie and I at last found a slackin place,
or so I think
Hahaha

Signing off now la
Love, take care always :]
Miss you so much
Love you

Don't feel right..

2010-03-12T05:22:00.000-08:00

Don't know what's happening..
Don't know what to do to make you feel better..
Don't what to say to make you feel better..
Don't know how to make you feel better..
Feel really useless..
Been miserable lately..
You may think I'm being over-reacting..
You may think I'm not understanding you..
Yes, I do love you..
And knows you love me too..
I guess this is just the starting of challenges for us right?

Seriously, doesn't feel right anymore..

Busy

2010-02-26T01:02:00.000-08:00

Been busy this last few days..
Just missing all those times being with her..

Saturday out with friends =]

2010-02-08T02:45:00.000-08:00

Paolo emo-ing =p

By the poolside

Woooo.. Sheesha after seminar =]

Haqiqie, Paolo, Me and Rahul =] (Brothers from another mother)

Guess what's on our lips ;]

Hahaha
Photos from last saturday
After seminar, meet out Rahul,
Haqiqie and Nasir
Then went to sheesha
Hehe
Had fun =]

Love, miss you so much
Test this week
Gotta study hard
=]
Love you, Love ^^

Pics =]

2010-02-02T02:39:00.000-08:00

Love, here are our pics you were asking me to post
Hope you love it
Love you ^^

1st Monthsary

2010-01-29T02:30:00.000-08:00

Lovely 1st monthsary, Love
Always know that even if we're far away
from each other,
I'm just here for you
^^

Stay strong with me alright?
We'll make it through, don't worry
I miss you
and
I love you so so so so so so so so so so so much ^^
**Kiss** and **Hugs**

tabula rasa...?

2010-01-16T22:45:00.000-08:00

I know I said we're a clean slate.
I know I should stop obsessing.
Zzzz.

***

I can't help it.
This is so NOT me.
I've never been possessive.
I have never cared too much.
Until now. (:
Haha.
Whatever.

***

Mag-aaral na nga lang ako.
At least ang interaction ng folic acid at cobalamin naiintindihan ko.

***

Kung hindi ka makarelate, wag mo na lang pansinin. (:
ILY, kid. (:

apologies

2010-01-15T01:39:00.000-08:00

I love your impulsive sing and dance tendencies.

I love your spontaneity.

I love how you always know the best things to say.

I love your sweet talk.

I love how you make me laugh. Especially when you look funny doing it and you don’t care.

I love how we look complementary in black and white.

I love how you hold my hand.

I love how you tell me the simple things, and how you know that they matter.

I love your expression: zzzz.

I love how you hug me in public, even when I complain about PDA.

I love your honesty.

I love that you’re an emangster. For real.

I love how you dedicate every song to me and you.

I love how you’re annoyed with the smallest things, yet you always understand the biggest mistakes.

I love your cute, little girl-voice and your cute, little girl-laugh. Haha.

I love your acceptance.

I love your playfulness, your innocence.

I love your love.

I love you for a thousand reasons more.

And just because.

=]

Sorry kanina. It wasn't because nahihiya akong sabihin in front of my friends. Hindi lang talaga ako vocal about these things. Pero if it makes you happy, i'd tell you everyday. I love you.

Detention =]

2010-01-14T05:51:00.000-08:00

Lucky my detention was just a few hours
Hahaha
Thank God ^^

Don't worry, love
I'll come back
And hindi kita ipagpapalit over Yakuza Lords
Hahaha
Love you too ^^

Don't worry. I'll call you tomorrow.
Umalis kasi yung friend ko nung Detention ako eh.
Bukas nalang. ok?
Hehe =]

...

2010-01-14T05:42:00.000-08:00

The weight of ten months is sinking in.
Like an anchor dropping in the middle of the sea.
Even truth refuses to refuse gravity.

Someday I'll hold your hand.
For now, I'll have to make do with us just sharing the same skies.

Ito ang epekto pag pinagpalit mo ko sa Yakuza Lords.
Hahas.
Love you, Patrick Oliver.

The pictures. The phone call. The sim. How come andami mo ng promises sa kin?

I'm back

2010-01-13T04:43:00.000-08:00

Hahas
I'm back again
Been in Philippines for the past 1 and a half month
Miss everything I left behind
Don't worry, I'll be back for them

So what's up year 2010?
Goin to give me troubles and headache again?
Nahh..
I won't be heading for troubles
I'll be heading to what I've promise to my Love
Hahas

Gotta go now
Going to post some unforgettable pictures
sooner by this week
Love, don't worry, ok?
I'll post it ^^

Bubye
Take care and Goodnight everyone =]

emangster. :)

2010-01-12T05:58:00.000-08:00

patrick798oliver has signed out. (1/12/2010 9:57 PM)

talk to you again in 24 hours. i hope. :(

i miss you like crazy naman. haha.

and like i already said sa fb:

"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you because i know no other way."

- I Do Not Love You, Pablo Neruda

take me with you

2010-01-09T06:06:00.000-08:00

"There's just one more thing,
One request,
I want you to take me with you."

Not to singapore, mind you. :)

I'll miss you everyday.

Every sunset, every KFC, every song would remind me of you.

aishiteru. :)

-girlfie

Bullshit.

2009-11-10T05:38:00.000-08:00

Everybody's been giving attitude
What the fuck's wrong with them?
Bullshit.

Did my best

2009-11-10T01:16:00.000-08:00

I did my best

But I guess my best wasn't good enough

Seems like nothing changes

Back to where we were like strangers

It's time..

2009-11-08T22:59:00.001-08:00

It's time..

Time to stop pretending

Time to stop all those lies

Time to stop loving you

And..

Time to find myself again

Letting go of my feelings is hard..

But it is better than having you inside me

while moving on..

You've already answered my unanswered questions..

You've already tell the truth..

Thanks for that..

So yeah..

It's time to let go of everything..

Let go of you..

Let go of my feelings towards you..

****

"Haqiqie : You may be stupid, but you what's love is.. But you're a FOOL!"

Thanks for saying that..

It's true..

****

Dear God..

2009-10-20T23:25:00.000-07:00

Dear God,

All I want for this special day..

Is you take me away..

Just take me away..

And I shall be happy..

Love,

Patrick

Am I..

2009-10-14T21:27:00.000-07:00

Questions been going

through my mind

One of them is..

Am I, myself now?

Happy deadday

2009-10-08T21:56:00.001-07:00

I give up everything already

Not for me

But for Brothers and

for You

Wish ya'll be happy already

All of you..

Sorry, this is the best I can

give already

There's nothing left for me

to give

There's nothing left for me

to keep

Dear God,

Please take me now

I've done what I can do already

There's nothing left for me to do

12 days more

Please take me

Make my birthday happy

Please..

Zombie

2009-10-05T04:56:00.000-07:00

Today I've turn myself into
a Zombie
A living guy who're
dead inside

Tonninq

2009-10-03T14:12:00.000-07:00

Now here posting at Stanley's house
Jian Yuan, Stanley and I go ton
Haix..

To her :
Relax lah
You're my damn girl
Not anyone's bitch
Hehe
Cheer up yaw ^^

***
I hope one day you can see
So we could be together
for the rest of eternity
***

I'm losing it..

2009-09-30T06:17:00.000-07:00

Ano na ba dapat ang kelangan kong gawin?

Pagod nako..

Gustong gusto ko na sumuko..

Pero anong magagawa ko?

Wala..

Kung pede lang,

hinding hindi na ko magpapakita sa inyo

Ayoko na..

Pagkaisahan nyo na ako..

Wala nakong magagawa..

Wala nakong muka na maipapakita sa inyo

Wala na rin akong Pride..

Ngayo'y bumibitiw nako..

Are you all happy?

***

I'm losing everything..

Even the girl I love..

I'm totally tired..

No point living..

***

Hoooooo...

2009-09-29T02:37:00.001-07:00

I got nothing to say already
I gave my best for everything
Gave my best words everyone to
understand

No comments already..
Ya'll ask me,
mind as well talk on the wall better
Haiiss..
-.-

2009-09-28T08:04:00.000-07:00

For bro's :

If you think I've change,

then I guess I should say this to ya'll too

Ya'll have change too

For her :

Don't worry..

This will be just the beginning..

For backstabbers :

Got nothing to say to ya'll already

No more words left for me to say

If ya'll don't like me,

it's okay

I'll try my best to understand..

And for me :

Just be yourself..

Don't try to be someone whom

people will like you more

Don't make people who you are

Who you don't wanna be

2009-09-27T08:02:00.001-07:00

I guess this is it..

Only confidence and guts is my only way

to tell this to you..

I've fallen for you..

And now I love you..

2009-09-25T22:27:00.000-07:00

Hahahas
Last night, one Damn Girl kena drunk
Hahaha
But tell you frankly,
you really look cuter
^^
Red-Appled face
=]

Drink last night
Got lil problem with something
But phew!
Everything's alright now
=]

Maybe

2009-09-24T23:49:00.000-07:00

Maybe what She say about You
is true
I can't believe I didn't think about that
Haix..
Nevemrind..

So much

2009-09-23T03:45:00.001-07:00

Think what ya'll want
I'm a stealer
A joker
A fucker
No problem

Closest to me
Backstab me
Is that all you can do?
Got face to tell others
But no face to tell me
Fuck it

I'm off to ya'll
Heck care
Damn it

What else should I do to make this
people think wrong about me?
Ya'll tell me
And I shall do it
Fucked

***
Loving only happens every few times for me
Why don't ya'll understand?
***

Till the end..

2009-09-22T04:10:00.000-07:00

Just wondering if I'll join the war
If I do, this will be the greatest battle of my life which
I haven't gone through

I'll have to take on 3 other kings
3 other kingdoms
Who is almost damn close to me
Just to win this Queen

How?
Will I join and defeat them?
Or I'll join and fight a losing battle?
Will I back down so I wouldn't get hurt?
Or I'll back down so not to give You another worry?

I can't count on my friends
because I don't want them to think wrong about me

So please God,
Join me
Be with me
Till the end..

Hurt

2009-09-18T02:37:00.000-07:00

Just came back from school..
Nothing really much today..
Just been fucked up with someone
Hahas

So yeah,
nothing to post yaw!!
Next time,
tell me something you want me to post.
OK??
Take care everyone ^.^

***
I've been hurt all along
So I'll just give you a smile
=DD
***

2009-09-16T00:21:00.000-07:00

I'm happy now
Slackers is just a name
But family ain't

This is in our FAMILY now
Rahul
Haqiqie
Jian Yuan
Hong Ming
Alvin Quek
Melissa
Vivian
Stanley
Paolo
Ricco
&
Me
!!
^^

We meet, we slack, we have fun
And face problems

Wish this goes on
Even there still many problems ahead of us
We'll fight it together
Yeah?
Love ya'll guys ^.^

Alone

2009-08-23T04:45:00.001-07:00

Really nothing to say
There this girl
I really like

I maybe the reason for us(SLACKERS) to brake apart
Just tell me if I am
And I promise I won't let it happen..

****
If I would to be the reason,
I would promise not to be the one again
If I would to be the reason,
I would promise to make it all up to be with ya'll
And if I would be the main cause,
I would promise to leave ya'll alone
****

Outta here

2009-08-13T02:32:00.000-07:00

Fuck it
People disliking me?
Don't have to say behind my back whoever you all are
Say that infront of my face

Whoever you all are,
Just wanna tell you this shit I've been keepin'
I ain't forcin' ya'll to befriend with me
Ya'll don't want me,
Then fuck off

And my friends out there who's been backstabbing me
ever since "I CHANGE"
Ya'll don't have to hide it
Just say that infront of my face

Fuck it
I'm outta here

Slack..

2009-08-04T02:52:00.000-07:00

Haix.
Back at posting at last.
Look here, Slackers..

Ya'll got problem with one another, then talk about it..
If can't, then fuck off..
Ya'll got nothing better to do than saying shit
on people's back..
Then fuck off..
Ya'll think I'm the one who has the problem
then tell me..
I'm the one who'll fuck off..

Been shit this few days..
Confronted some people..
It's alright to give attitude..
But don't take it so emotionally..
Cuz it's true..
Up to ya'll..
Ya'll wanna blame me for telling ya'll that..
Then fuck it..

Changes

2009-07-17T02:36:00.000-07:00

Understanding
I'm tired of it
I keep understandin people
But does it do me any good?
No

Keep understandin my friends
I'm not asking for anything for change from it
But it's getting over the limit

Keep understanding these girls
But what do I get?
Hurt

I'm sick and tired of it
I don't wanna understand people anymore

It's just not right
Understand here and there
And I'll get hurt here and there
Fuck it

I'm tired seriously..

Tooggg

2009-07-13T04:43:00.000-07:00

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Jeez

2009-07-04T01:04:00.000-07:00

I don't know what to feel right now
Should I be angry?
Or should I feel good?
Should I be happy?
Or should I be sad..?

You tell me
Cuz no one will..

I really don't know what to say right now
I feel empty right now

No feelings
No words
No everything

Slackers

2009-06-25T11:11:00.000-07:00

Haix
Many things happen this past few days
I don't even know..
..if "Slackers" will last..

***

Some take this, some take that
Some smoke this, some smoke that
Some take glue, some take spray
Some fighting, some getting to know

For this Bitch :
Even I only knew you this few weeks of slacking,
I can see who you are already
You made so much promises to someone
But in the end, you still do that
At the slacking place some more
Just to tell you,
Don't be too proud of yourself
You think you've gotta lot of pride
But then, you end up where?
It's all bullshit
You're my friend, that's why I care for you

And for this Girl :
You don't have to make promises
It's alright you brake promises that won't end you up in a bad situation
But this, you call it just once?
I'm so mad about this, because you're not just like any of my friends
You're one of the Slackers
And you know I really love them
I just don't want you ending up like some people out there
I got nothing more to say to you
You broke your promise, but I won't break mine

So if ya'll think I'm just being emotional
Well, I can say you're bloody wrong..
I just care for ya'll

***

Haix
I lose two friends in just a slight moment
But to think twice,
I think it's better..

Sana lang..

2009-05-31T18:06:00.000-07:00

♥♥
Kung malaya lang ako..
Sana lang..
♥♥

Killed me

2009-05-30T18:21:00.000-07:00

30 May
Killed me

They just don't understand

Now..

2009-05-22T18:25:00.000-07:00

Because of you..
..I've never feel this way before
Because of you..
..I've been like this
Because of you..
..I've changed

I've tried..
..And I failed
Use to have hope..
..But now giving up is left for me

But you know I wouldn't give up
It's just that I realized that I'm not good enough for you
But it's alright
I'm done with it

I started this game..
..I didn't realize it wouldn't be that much fun
And now I have to end this..

..And now it's over..

Sana by Shamrock

2009-05-18T02:13:00.000-07:00

Sana by Shamrock

Langit na muli
Sa sandaling makita ang kislap ng iyong ngiti
May pag-asa kaya
Kung aking sasabihin ang laman ng damdamin

Pinipilit mang pigilin
Na ika'y aking isipin
Wala na yatang magagawa

Sana'y hindi ipagkait sa 'kin ang sandali
Na masilayan ka at marinig man lang ang tinig
Laging bukas ang puso ko upang ibigin ka
Laging wagas ang aking pagtingin at aking pagsinta

Pinapangarap ka
Tinatanaw sa ulap ang iyong mga mata
Dinarasal kita
Hinihiling na sana ay lagi kang masaya

Pinipilit mang pigilin
Na ika'y aking ibigin
Wala na yatang magagawa

Sana'y hindi ipagkait sa 'kin ang sandali
Na masilayan ka at marinig man lang ang tinig
Laging bukas ang puso ko upang ibigin ka
Laging wagas ang aking pagtingin at aking pagsinta

Pinipilit mang pigilin
Na ika'y aking ibigin
Wala na yatang magagawa

Sana'y hindi ipagkait sa 'kin ang sandali
Na masilayan ka at marinig man lang ang tinig
Laging bukas ang puso ko upang ibigin ka
Laging wagas ang aking pagtingin at aking pagsinta

"A song that is meant for you
Hope you know what it means
Cuz it's truly for you"

I know what love is

2009-05-10T19:46:00.000-07:00

"I may be stupid
But I know,
What love is"

So it's over

2009-05-07T07:22:00.000-07:00

I don't wanna talk to you already
I don't wanna see you already
Cuz if I do that
I'll fall in love with you more

So it's over

Tired

2009-04-29T03:18:00.001-07:00

I'm not gonna hold back anymore
I'm moving forward in my own life..
I'm tired of loving you when nothings happening
For the last time baby, thanks for forgiving me..
I love you..

♥♥
Maybe it's only until here
This is where my love story will end
♥♥

Zzzzzzzzzzzzz

2009-04-22T01:45:00.000-07:00

Forgetting you
Is like
Letting go of everything

Bad week

2009-04-03T18:44:00.000-07:00

Yesterday spar with some fucker in school
In the end, his face alot of bruises
Then caught by teachers..
Next week, kena detention and caning..

Zz..
Bad week

Losing

2009-03-24T01:48:00.000-07:00

Till now,
She haven't talked to me yet..
I can't believe just one silly mistake,
You'll lose someone special..

Dying

2009-03-09T04:10:00.000-07:00

I'm dying
I have a Heart Cancer
Just found out just now
You take care
I love you

Marlboro

2009-02-27T20:12:00.000-08:00

Haix
Someone ask me to stop
But I just can't stop
Hehe

This is my new best friend ^^
I'm in love with this
If ya'll think I'm driving myself crazy
Yes, I am

Heaven knows

2009-02-21T02:45:00.000-08:00

Haix
Life is just the way it is
Good times
and
Bad times

Heaven knows

Valentine's

2009-02-13T22:45:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!!
Hope ya'll with your love ones today ^_^
Stay happy together^^
Make this a very special day ^^

If we never broke up last year,
today will be our first anniversary..

This day brings a lot of memories..
In just one day,
many things has happen to us..
Still remember those times..

***
But too bad, it's just all memories now..
But a memory that shall not be forgotten..
That's the past..
A past that will always be with me..
***

2009-02-07T20:41:00.000-08:00

Wah
So tired sia
Just woke up
Last night slack with friends

Go block 219 there
Jian Yuan, Hong Ming, Haqiqie, Rahul, Ricco, The Sec 1 guy(don't knoe how to spell the name), Stanley, Melissa and I ^^
Wah, last night party like nobody's biznazz

Then some more go tell ghost stories sia
Like so damn scared when I told them about mine

Then go home like 11 plus
But still fun
^^

Awwwwwwwwwwww...

2009-02-04T23:31:00.000-08:00

Aww..

So long never post liao

Hahas

Got some troubles lately

Hahas

Because of that Zhi Hao ( shamless man ) ^_^

Some guy say some untruth stuff about this lil old girl

Then this shameless man go believe

Hahas

Nevermind

Those who know about the story, please forget about it

It's not really a big deal

^_^

Zhi Hao, Sorry

Hahas

Biatch

2009-01-08T23:39:00.000-08:00

Deleting this blog soon

Believe me

I'm serious

Ain't need this shit

I've got my own life now

I don't need this memories of my bitches

Everytime I open this shit

Everything came over me

Damn

So be it, Biatch

F*ck it

I'm a new guy now

That's my new year revolution

Ain't do that shit or this shit

Merry Xmas

2008-12-24T04:49:00.000-08:00

New 2009 Year is nearing
Need to change alot sia
Hehe
I don't think can sia
Hahas

Advance Merry Christmast to all!

May you all have a great and happy Christmas!

And Advance Happy New Year!

I'm still me

2008-12-10T23:03:00.000-08:00

There's this one girl I'm really inlove with

But too bad, just get rejected

I truly understand her

I'm not the guy for her

Even if it takes me a whole lifetime trying to forget

I can't

My friend's told me that I've really change

I'm not gonna blame her if it's all because of her

There's only me to blame

Blame me cuz I've loved her

Blame me cuz I've been insane

And blame me cuz I never ease to make her smile

Anyway, hope I'll move on quicker

I don't wanna lose friends

And just hope you all won't change the way ya'll look at me

Cuz I'm still me

One day

2008-11-13T20:04:00.000-08:00

Why ever should I have a parents like this?
Always I'm in the wrong place
And other people's at the right place
I don't understand them

****
One day
I'll ran away
Very far
Far from everyone
Where no one will find me

And one day
I'll find this gate
Where inside has no problems
****

Why not?

2008-11-11T08:19:00.000-08:00

Want me out of your buisness??

Sure, why not?

Then you're out of my buisness too

I don't care the shit out of you anymore

****

F*cked Up

BASH or POUR

2008-10-21T01:29:00.001-07:00

Aaargghh!!
Worst birthday morning I've got in my whole entire life
Morning, we had this shit, cross country, who ruin my morning
And after that, my classmates ask me Bash or Pour

I don't even what is Pour, so i chose it
And the whole CHINESE guys pour water on me
And in front of all those schoolmates and GIRLS
Zzz

Then some more, the girls pour water on me too
Zz
They can bash me, not POUR!
Zz

Anyway, I still had fun today
^^

SPAR

2008-10-15T23:29:00.000-07:00

Sigh
Sparring today
2v1
Paolo and I vs Alvin

Didn't really know who win
It's up to the audience
I'm not judging
I just know that we had fun today
^^

P.S. I'm more stronger than Paolo.. Hahas ^^

Leaving

2008-10-10T21:48:00.000-07:00

I'm leaving

I won't be staying in Singapore for too long

My Dad have finish negotiating with his company

Maybe next year we're moving to New Zealand

Sigh

I'm so sad

Leaving my friends here

From this day on

I'll treasure them like I don't wanna leave them

And what I'm sad of the most

I won't get to see her anymore

And won't have the chance to talk her to anymore

Sigh

Shit

2008-10-09T18:48:00.000-07:00

I don't know who to believe now

Everyone seems to lie

No good talking to them about this shit

Only can smile

Even though they're full of shit

Lonely night

2008-10-08T23:40:00.000-07:00

A lonely night

Is full of loneliness

A lonely october

Is full of unhapiness

Yesh!

2008-10-08T02:22:00.001-07:00

New month

New life

Hahas

Exams gonna be over soon

WAHOO!!

siggh

2008-09-30T04:22:00.000-07:00

From now on
I'll accept the fact
That you don't wanna see me

((()))

2008-09-28T23:13:00.000-07:00

Last night, I talked to my friend
Everything she says
Has changed my mind
She's right

It's not the end of everything
Only time will decide
My friends got the same problem like me

She says :
"If you love someone, you'll do everything for her,
unless, you're words are stronger than actions. "

My way

2008-09-24T05:18:00.000-07:00

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
Cause I know I just can't stay
Just like what I am now

Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know I'll be no more

....

2008-09-23T02:07:00.000-07:00

Letting you go is difficult
But it feels better
Than not letting you go
And EMOing all the time

Letting you go

2008-09-19T19:59:00.001-07:00

All I want is to see you happy

So I've make up my soul

It's not that I'm giving up

I'm gotta forget about you

I'm just gonna let you go..

..completely..

Don't mean

2008-09-18T03:26:00.000-07:00

Earlier this day

I beat up Wei Qiang

Because he wrote something on a paper

Which is true

I tore the paper

Keep it and put it in my pocket

Then want to take out something

Put the paper in the table

Wei Qiang suddenly took it

I ask for it

He threw it to Goh Sheng & Co.

I know what will happen if they know

New rumours

New talk-about

Sigh

Didn't mean to do that

Just want to show you

That I really want to forget about you

But you careless

I don't know what I just did

Then 2periods before dismissal time

I ask for a marker

You gave me

I can't just reject it

So I took it

And you started playing with me

I don't know whether I should feel happy or not

Pinching and hitting with you

I don't know why I don't feel anything

I only know I smiled

Cuz there's only ONE that can cure me

Cure my hopeless heart

Is to see you SMILE cause by me

2008-09-13T07:57:00.000-07:00

At last
I can say whatever I can't say here in blog
I don't wanna tell her about this blog
I just don't want her to think weird

Yeah, I do love you Jasmine
Every time you talk about him
I feel thousands of needles poking me
I just wanna die that moment

I don't know how to tell you what I really feel
Cuz in your precious eyes, I'm only your brother
Paolo ask you once
"How if Patrick likes you?"
And you told him, he got no chance

That's why I'd rather ask you to be my GOD-SISTER
Rather than being rejected

It's okay
I understand you
I know the way I love you is not the right time
If everyone knows what I really feel about you
They would think I want to steal you from him

I still remember, that I help Goh Sheng to be with you
Yeah it happens
He's happy
I don't know about you
But even though I help him, I'm hurt

I also remember the time I told you to get back with Alvin
I know that's the only way to see your smile back
Even though it hurts me alot
It's alright with me
As long as your happy, I'm happy

And now you two were together
I saw your face, your movement
I know you feel so much joy in your heart

Just to see you smile
I would do everything
Even to sacrifice everything
I wouldn't take another day with you feeling unhappy

I just want everything in your life to be fine
I don't want you to get hurt
Alvin should feel very lucky to have you

I know you know about the rumours spreading about
Yeah it's true
I do like
But they made me swear If I really don't like you

I swear that I don't like you
But in my heart
I don't really like you
But I love you

This past few days
You seem to be avoiding me
I understand that

Anyway, your life seems to be great with your heart with ALVIN
Nevermind, I know I'm not the guy you desire
So the only way I could do
Is to see you in good condition

You won't ever see this blog again
With full of your names
Cuz I wouldn't tell you
I just wanna keep this blog a secret

Where no one knows
I put all my hurt feelings

Sighhhh

2008-09-11T07:14:00.000-07:00

I don't care what people around me

I only care about you

If you think that I'm regretting everything

No, I just love the way things going through me

You're never wrong to me

You're always right

You're choices is up to you

So I'm ready for everything you'll say to me

I'm not the one

2008-09-10T00:38:00.000-07:00

Even if we're not meant to be together
It's alright, cuz I know I'm not the one

But remember this,
I will love you, till yesterday, till now and till tomorrow
And the day you will open your eyes
To see my love for you

Please tell me..

2008-09-09T05:01:00.000-07:00

Please tell me Girl, if I've gotta chance
Cuz I couldn't take another word from you
Every word you talk about somebody, make me bleed
If only I could tell you this in person, I already did

But I know you would think it as a joke
Cuz never before you believe anyone would say it to you
I promise this Girl, once I've gotta chance
I wouldn't let you go

Please tell me Girl, if I've gotta chance
Cuz I can't take another breathe
Looking at your precious eyes

SIGH

2008-09-02T02:13:00.000-07:00

Haish
One week holidays really starting getting me to stressed
Holidays started 2 days ago, but not any of projects started
Haix

Haven't found a job
Need money, really
Sigh

2 Girls who's very special to me
One of them, lied to me
I waited for nothing

Another girl
She's happy now
But here I am rotting

All I want is happiness
But what i get?
In the end, sacrifice alot
SIGH

This world really hates me
I wish I could turn back everything
I could just run away

In this world, you're the only one in my mind
Even if you don't know you're the ONE
It's fine with me
No guts to tell you

I just love you

Thats true

2008-08-21T02:38:00.000-07:00

I just wanna be high

Like the clouds in the sky

My friends life is enjoying

But here I am dying

I can't take it anymore

I'm now acting like a crazy whore

I already sacrifice my happiness just for you

Because I love you

And that's true

I am thinking of you

2008-08-20T03:07:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it's hard to put feelings into words

But I want you to know that every minute

"I am thinking of you"

Wondering what you are up to

Counting the days till we can do together

Missing you more with every Passing Day

So good

2008-08-15T06:39:00.000-07:00

So good arh

Finish common test already

Hahaha

I now then post after so long sia

Hehe

Anyway, anyone can tell me?

How am I supposed to live if she has/love someone already??

Thanks

=)=

Half happy, half sad

Common Test

2008-08-05T04:31:00.001-07:00

Sigh
Common test coming
Haven't even start studying
No mood

Feel like doesn't even care of my studies anymore
Feels like I'm so light
That I just want to fly away with the wind

I lost my handphone even more
All my memories, phone books and my new found friend is store there
Want to cry now
Huhuhu
T.T

Miss her

2008-07-26T00:02:00.000-07:00

She haven't online yet

I miss her alot

Wish you're alright

I love you

2008-07-25T03:03:00.000-07:00

I'm in love with this girl

Haix

Someday I'm gonna meet you

Take care

Muah

Finally

2008-07-18T23:36:00.000-07:00

Finally coming back to this blog

Now, I've got guts

If

2008-06-24T05:23:00.000-07:00

I'm on hangover right now
If only it had never happen
If only I don't have the other girl's number
It wouldn't happen this way

But what's done is done
She ain't no turning back anymore
She's finally done it to me
I wouldn't know what to do if she never forgive me

I love her
Deeply inside my heart
To the core
Sigh

This is not the way I want it to be
But I know it's too late
For everything
I wanna die now

I would do everything
Just for her
Even if she doesn't have feelings for me
Even if she doesn't want me in her life

That's how I love her
So if any of you love someone or reading this
I hope this won't happen to ya'll
I don't want you all to be hurt
Like me

Tricia, if you're reading this
Just wanna let you know that I really love you
And that I'm sorry
That I didn't do it on purpose

If I would have the chance to return back to time
I would change it

To all blog readers

2008-06-14T20:00:00.001-07:00

Maybe I'm not gonna use this blog anymore

I've got new blog that nobody of you will know

Aryt

Just wanna tell ya'll to take care of yourself always

If ya'll have any problems, just message me or contact me

You can add me up here :

Yahoo : patrick798oliver@yahoo.co.uk

MSN : curly_798@hotmail.com

Bye

^_^

In love..

2008-05-23T20:41:00.000-07:00

At last, I'm in love..
I feel like I'm in heaven..
Floating like a feather..
Haix..
:D

Bagay tayo..

2008-05-17T21:44:00.000-07:00

Hindi tayo tao..

Hindi din tayo hayop..

Bagay tayo..

Haha..

Woooh..

2008-05-16T08:30:00.000-07:00

Just came home from work..

Never been this tired wid all my life..

Yeash..!!

2008-05-14T07:02:00.000-07:00

Exam's over!!

Celebrate!! Curly celebrate..!!

I can't stop jumping for joy!!

Hahaha!!

This song reminds me of someone I really love..

2008-05-10T06:07:00.000-07:00

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I can never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best.. when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd (the crowd)
Try as they may they could never define
What's been said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best.. when you say nothing at all

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best.. when you say nothing at all

(You say it best when you say nothing at all
You say it best when you say nothing at all..)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know that you need me..

Wahh..

2008-05-05T01:39:00.000-07:00

Today, first day of MID YEAR..
Actually, second..
Diffy sia..
Like dun wanna study anymore..

Hahaha..
Anyway, things went bad right after english paper..
What in da world did I do oh GOD??
I was just joking and I couldn't believe my bestfriend dun wanna hear me..

But after that, fortunately, I feel great..
My aunt and I went to JURONG POINT to watch the IRON MAN..
It's damn holy good!!
I love it!!
Then we went to KFC eat..

Hahaha..
And here I am typing my wonderful words..
Hahaha..

Ayoko na..

2008-04-26T17:31:00.000-07:00

Ayoko na magtago..
Nahihirapan nako..
Ayoko na..

Laging nagtatago sa dilim..
Na hindi naman alam kung anong kinakatakutan..
Di ko alam kung bakit ako nasasaktan..
Wala naman sakin lumalapit..

Nalilito nako..
Di ko na kaya..
Sa labas, naka-ngiti ako..
Sa loob, dumudugo ako..

Di ko na alam gagawin ko..
I've tried everything..
Nakisama ko kahit kanino..
Wala parin pumalag sa nararamdaman ko..

Kung akala nyo na babaero ako..
Nagkakamali keyo..
Sa totoo, pakita pagod nako..
Ayoko na..

I'm letting everything out..

Mid Year!!

2008-04-25T05:38:00.000-07:00

Aaarrgghh!!!!!!
Mid Year Exam's next week!!
OMFG!!
I haven't study!!

Di ko na alam gagawin ko..

2008-04-21T02:05:00.000-07:00

Sana di ko na nalaman pa..
Na meron ka ng iba..

Sabi ko sa sarili ko na lilimutin kita..
Na kaya ko..
Pero yun pala, lalong sasaktan ako..
Di ko na kaya..

Sana di ko na nalaman..
Alam ko masaya ka na..
Pero sana matandaan mo toh..
Kung Binabasa mo toh..

Nighihintay parin ako sayo..

ToT

2008-04-18T09:21:00.000-07:00

I have a bad day..